2018-02-18 Sunday Status Update – Ugly, Uglier, and Ugliest

Oh how I have missed you, my sweet, beautiful elliptical machine. I know I’ve been gone for a few days but I promise you there were no other machines involved.. just people, work, wine, and a successful visit to the Red Cross (not in that order of course).

The stat at the top of my Sunday lineup is my hemoglobin. 12.9 and over the threshold of the 12.4 required for donating blood. That was yesterday and now I can put that on the back of the shelf along with my iron supplements. At least for about 6 or 7 weeks.

(Ugly – The return of the daily headache)
Noteworthy in the supplement department is the fact that I ran out of Curcumin (a turmeric extract) which I’ve been taking daily for several months now. I’ve been on my soapbox on this topic several times so I won’t repeat myself. However, the supply ran out and as the consulate analyst and experimenter I decided to take the opportunity to see what effect not talking it would have.

I’m not kidding.. a couple days and my daily headaches returned. It could be other variables like hormones, too much or not enough caffeine, not enough sleep, alcohol, stress, but it is too much of a coincidence to dismiss. A few days of that and turning back to Tylenol and ibuprofen had me running my fingeres to that “one click” feature in Amazon to replenish my supply. I’m day 3 back on it and despite drinking too much wine last night, I woke up headache free. Huzzah. I’m a believer.

The quickest jump from that is to take inventory on my other analytics.

Steps are back up this week.. 20K average per day but jazzercise class counts are still down because of other commitments.

(Uglier – The human garbage disposal)
Healthy eating was literally not on the table this week. I over indulged in just about everything I fancy and I’m going to go ahead and blame the deprivation caused by that Whole 30. Cookies, chocolate, fried appetizers, cheeseburger and fries and onion rings dipped in ranch dressing, fried rice, fried potatoes, and bread. All that was in addition to my new found, high calorie, favorite breakfast. Eggs, guacamole, salsa, potatoes, with or without bacon. Oh and did I mention the alcohol? 🍷 🍸 🍹

I’m in need of a serous course correction… on that AND sleep. I had an average of 5 hours and 50 minutes a night. That’s terrible. I guess making bad decisions was a theme for the week. My time in on my studies was shit too.

I should be spending 20 hours a week minimum on writing, revisions, and reading and I bet I only spent 4 at the most. I currently have no way to gather official stats on that. I could record it like I have to for my job I guess. But manual time cards? Ewwww!

I worked 22 hours which is right around that sweet spot and I have no excuses for not reading more for school. I guess I spent too much time texting with my new crush. Can I really have spent that much time texting? Not possible.

Oh yeah.. relationship status. Still single. Surprise, surprise. I cancelled my meet-up with Simon Tuesday and met him Thursday instead and it felt very much like meeting with someone you just have no desire to talk to. I was nice and the conversation was very much one-sided as I expected. I followed up later that day with a book of an email I felt compelled to write so I could say (almost) everthing I’m too chicken shit to say in person.

I didn’t say “hey, I don’t want to be friends”.. but my hope is that a person who is as perceptive as he says he is, could read between the lines. I honestly didn’t care if he responded, but I underestimated his instincts to counter my observations in an attempt to maintain his superiority. Ooops. There I go again saying something not nice.

He wrote back quite a bit and his disappointment in me and what I wrote came through loud and clear. There were a few things I could not let go, so I did reply back standing my ground on two main points. I picked my battles and I will not back down on either of them.

One was about my daughter and just don’t even try to fuck with me about my teenage daughter and our relationship and my parenting. Just don’t. The second was about his inability to define our relationship and not owning up to the fact that he used it to release himself from any responsibility to another persons feelings.. MY feelings. That’s total crap and he needs to know it. I sent that back last night and as of right now have not yet received any response back. Perhaps I will have the last word on it. I really hope so, but we shall see.

(Ugliest – Negative Self Image)
Related to my status on all fronts.. I’m just feeling generally not great about the way I look right now. I’m feeling sort of unwell and tired and bloated and frumpy. I’m definitely in need of some positive reassurance. Valentines day alone doesn’t help. Seeing couples holding hands everywhere doesn’t help. Don’t get me started on the affect of media, social or otherwise. I just want to turn it all off. Add to that the fact that I’ve gained some weight recently and don’t like what I see when I look in the mirror. OK, I’m a thin person by nature, but that just means that any fluctuation at all and my clothes start to become too tight and uncomfortable. I suppose the binging on food this week did not help and the fact that I’m still thinking about loading up on ice cream before this day is through is also not going to be good. What is a girl to do? (first world rhetorical question).

I need to put some hours into the schoolwork today and snap out of my funk. I just have to.
Time to Be Like Lee Nails, and Press On,
~Miss SugarCookie


2018-01-28 Sunday Status Update – Totally Phoning This One In

Happy Sunday People! Let’s make this quick so we can get back to the good life…

Sleep.. Average 7 hours 36 minutes a night.

Exercise.. Average 22,372 per day.

Healthy eating.. Day 21 of 30 of the Whole 30. See yesterday’s post for the details.

Employment status.. Full time gig, working part time hours.

Student status.. Full time and starting to panic!

Relationship status.. Actively looking despite my current student status. 😜

That’s it.. I’m Out.
~Miss SugarCookie

2018-01-21 Sunday Status Update

Sleep.. Average 8 hours and 14 minutes last week. That’s freaking amazing!!! The consistency is getting better and I think that’s a direct result of my diligence and really establishing a great routine. It’s only January and I’m already hitting my goal! 😴😊✅🎉

Eating.. Still on the Whole 30. Today is Day 14. I’m almost half way there and still love eggs. I’ve perfected my guacamole and have established a planning/cooking routine that works. Evenings (between 7 and bedtime) are the toughest to fight through cravings. I’m probably eating too many fruits and nuts but that’s going to have to be ok.

Exercise.. 18,615 average steps per day. Four Jazzercise classes and back up to 8 pound free weights in class.

Employment status.. I didn’t quite hit 20 hours this week. That’s got to change.

Relationship status.. Single.

Student status.. I’m a full time student trying to get it done on part time hours. This has to change too. I need to ramp things up and put in some serious reading in the next week.

This week I’m looking forward to lunch with Sam today, Amy on Tuesday, and a family Birthday lunch on Wednesday with my mom and sisters. It will really be the first test of eating at restaurants on this Whole 30 plan. I definitely see some salads in my future.

Time to Hit it and Git it!

~Miss SugarCookie

2018-01-14 Sushiless Sunday Status Update

No Sushi for me today. I’m on day 7 of the Whole 30, which means no rice, which means no sushi. Waaaaaa.

While I am on the subject of food, for today’s status, lets just start there. Here are my musings about this Whole 30 thing so far…

Day 1 – I love eggs, this is going to be easy.
Day 2 – I love avocados, this is going to be easy.
Day 3 – Just bought another set of groceries to make some delicious meals, but I’m hungry for something right now and I don’t want to cook. My sister is cooking dinner for me, what a relief.
Day 4 – I love chili, and this was so easy. The guacamole I made to go on top just like my sister did is a great idea.
Day 5 – Eggs for breakfast, again. Still delicious, but I’m still hungry.
Day 6 – I think I might be eating too many nuts, but that’s not cheating right? I’ll just have another RX bar. That’s not cheating right?
Day 7 – I need to make that cauliflower rice thing before the cauliflower that I bought goes bad.

I’m still doing it, but recognize I need to ration my nuts and probably only go to the bars as a last resort. I read the label on a box of Larbars yesterday, and though all the ingredients are all whole with nothing off limits, it’s still “processed food” which is counter to the spirit of the program. The first ingredient is “dates”, which is also telling. Dates are “sugar bombs”, and if there is one goal I have in mind with doing this experiment, it’s that I can overcome my addiction to sugar.

I ate one yesterday, they are really sweet and I’m going to resist having any more until after the program is done. It’s one thing to have resolve, but another to maintain that resolve and not give in to tempation in the face of something so easy and already within arms reach. I haven’t been very tempted by the things that are in my pantry, which is a good sign. But can I hold steady with something as tasty as that? Time will tell.

With this sudden change in diet, I have seen a little bit of fall out so far in my energy levels. I have not been able to kick into high gear at the gym and have had a tough time with Jazzercise a few days this week. My overall activity has not changed much though.

5 Jazzercise classes and an average of 18K steps a day. I only missed my daily goal of 15K steps once and that was the day of the ice and snow where I was basically trapped at home all day.

Relationship status…
Single and (for the moment) happily so.

Employment status…
Part time and really digging it.

Student status…
Full time and trying to find my groove and figure out where to focus my efforts.

And last, but never least – Sleep!…
Average of 7 hours and 23 minutes a night, so close to my 7.5 goal! I have high hopes for this week. I can do it!!!

That’s probably it for now. Time to get today’s party started!

Stay Warm,
~Miss SugarCookie

2017-12-17 Stellar Sunday Stats

I can hardly believe that two weeks have gone by again already. The closer we get to the end of the year, the faster time flies.

This is the second to last status update for the year and I’m quite pleased that I’m holding steady on most things.


I’m still getting just shy of 7 hours per night. The goal is 7.5 and I think I will be able to get there real soon now.


19.4K steps on average the last 7 days. I did 6 Jazzercise classes this week and am zeroing in on my yearly goal there. If I hit 175 classes, I get a free t-shirt. All that sweat and all I get is a t-shirt. 😜

In truth, I hit 175 quite a ways back but I go to more than one location and their systems are not linked, so that 175 is at one location only.

Work.. I’m employed (woo-hoo) but not actually working or making money yet.

Relationship Status.. Becoming less complicated all the time. I’ll likely be single again soon. (Was I Ever not single?)

Healthy Eating…

I did better on this in the past week and only caved once for one of my favorite meals (you guess what that was). I’m very much gearing up to start the whole 30 in January. After I get home and am settled from my school retreat, probably January 8 since that’s a Monday.

In fact, as I often do, I’m already looking to the future and setting new goals on all fronts. I’m going to ride the rest of this year out without modifications but because I was so successful this year I want to keep that momentum and push forward.

All will be revealed in two weeks!

Happy Sunday,

~Miss SugarCookie

2017-12-03 Sunday Status Update and Reflection

Some days I feel so positive about my progress and some days I just feel like a follow through failure. Braeaking it all down with statistics helps me realize the reality and take feelings out of the story. These “pulse checks” are therefore very helpful. It’s also helpful to compare one moment in time to another. That way I can truly see if I’m making progress and meeting my goals.

Here’s today’s snapshot…

Exercise/Steps: My average steps for the last 7 days was just shy of 20k steps per day. This is on par with where I was two weeks ago but about twice as much as I was getting at the start of the year.

I went to about 6 Jazzercise classes for the week which is also about the same as last week but I’m doing more of this now than at the start of the year as well. I’m still using 8 pound weights but don’t think I can go any heavier because 8 pounds is pretty taxing on my joints.

Sleep: My 7 day average was 6 hours and 50 minutes. This is worse than the last four previous weeks which were all 7+ hours average per night. My goal has been 8 for so long but I’m feeling that’s unrealistic. I’m going to adjust accordingly and shoot for 7.5 hours. I’ve still felt rested and energized for the day when I wake up and I think that’s the important thing. I’m now able to sleep through the night which is HUGE! A year ago I was so far from that it’s crazy and was even still struggling six months ago. I’m attributing my improved mood and energy to this one factor and therefore know for certain the changes I’ve made in my life were not just good ones.. they were absolute necessity.

Eating: It was a tough week and my willpower was low. I had too much junk with sugar in it. I’ve decided I’m going gluten free… and I started a couple of days ago. If that seems familiar, it’s because it is. I just copy/pasted that from two weeks ago. It’s exactly the same. I caved on the gluten free thing a few times and broke down and had too many sweets. But a few days ago, on December 1st, I re-committed myself to being gluten free. It’s time to get serious. I’m not going to try and fool myself into thinking I can also cut dairy or sugar at the same time. So this month I’m going to focus on just that one change.

Employment: Still None. My MFA residency starts this month and I’m now actively engaged in looking for a job.

Relationships: I now have a backlog of writing to do on this subject.. for romantic relationships and new things regarding family, but I’ve not found dedicated time to do so because of other priorities. Of course I’m still single and unsure what to do about these of my life, but it’s not like it’s a thing you can set goals around and make “progress”. Am I Right?

Looking forward to:

1. Monday – Pounding the world wide electronic superhighway for a job. (Yes.. I’m actually excited about this).
2. Tuesday – An evening in or out with my lovely sister. .
3. Wednesday – Showing my HVAC who is boss and filing away the final episode of that saga.
4. Thursday – Lunch with Leah.
5. Friday – FriYay!
6. Saturday – Christmas cookie chaos!!

Life is Still Good,
~Miss SugarCookie

2017-10-22 Too Much

I’ve got words in my head that are in the Chorus of a popular Dave Matthews Band song, Too Much.

I eat too much, I drink too much, I want too much, too much. I don’t know what that song is really about, probably fame, but I’m feeling the chorus. Feeling it pretty heavy in my stomach and in my head today. I guess I kind of overdid it yesterday. Things were rolling along OK, right up until I went with Leah to the monthly “wine night” party that she goes to.

Sure, I may have had too much wine, but the real problem was the food. It’s like every person or couple that walked in the door brought a huge plate of deliciousness. Not to mention that the hostess, Susan, had three cheese plates with crackers and meat and also cooked these little bacon wrapped sausages drizzled with brown sugar and butter. They were delicious, but all of it was just “Too Much”.

When I went to bed last night I had serious thoughts about doing some sort of a cleanse or fast for a couple of days. Maybe starting Monday when the kids go back to their dad’s house for the week I will alter my diet for a few days just to get back to feeling well again. Even waking up this morning I’m not liking the way I look or feel and typically mornings are when I feel the best.

The lack of exercise is also running circles of havoc in my brain this AM, like missing one day is going to make a difference in the grand scheme of things. I know it won’t but that is not stopping my mind from trying to find time for me to double up on some things today. We’ll that is what my mind is doing. Meanwhile, my body just wants to go back to bed. I think today is going to be a struggle. I guess we’ll see.

Suck it up, suck it up, suck it up, yeah,
~Miss SugarCookie